Yesterday I sat in Jubilee’s chair at Hair Candy with a head full of pink dye, blue on the outside from the bitter cold, blue on the inside from the usual things that make me blue this time of year.
I warned Jubilee that I was in a foul mood. Nothing personal, I said. Just the usual yuckiness I always feel between Christmas and New Years. It’s like that relative you don’t particularly like, who always comes to visit and you know it’s not going to be pleasant but there’s nothing you can do. It just is what it is. You know they’re coming, you know you will be bummed out, you know it will be over soon, but for the duration, it just plain sucks.
Meanwhile, back in the chair, I can’t escape myself, staring back at me from the mirror. I’m stuck. I have no energy for the usual banter I have.
But I banter anyway, not interested or interesting.
We cover all of the clichés. Including the whole issue of The New Year’s Resolution.
“Do you have any?” asks Jubilee.
“Uh, haven’t really thought about it” I respond. At this point I’m not sure whether this is true or not, but I’m trying to move the conversation along.
But I loosen up, tighten my thinking cap (which itches under all of that bleach) and say this:
“I suppose we all should have resolutions, because really, we all have areas to improve on – whether it’s to be smaller, smarter, more creative, more productive, a better partner, a better spouse, a better person, better, better, better….”
At which point it hit me that, wow, this resolution thing is utter bullshit.
Jubilee pondered this too. And said this:
“Why can’t we all just be? Be happy with who we are?”
And so we both vowed to not make any.
I left her chair and headed back outside into the frosty air with wet hair (blow-dry + my hair = SOS pad) looking far more pink, and feeling much less blue.
Happy New Years!
1: Edie Parker Flavia clutch, Net-A-Porter. 2: Philipp Plein “Happy” leggings, Farfetch. 3: Joshua Saunders Happy Smile Trainers, Avenue32. 4: Moschino vintage “Love-Peace-Smile” necklace, Farfetch. 5: Spallanzani Happy ring, Montaigne Market.